paint your face

and ima fly fly fly high high high

2010-02-16T19:49:00.001+01:00

AND IM FEELING SUPER EFFIN HAPPY AND CRAZY AND I HAVE NO ONE TO CHARE MY ENERGY WITH!? WHAT IS THIS CRAP!?
cant even walk straight, and no im not drunk, or else i wouldnt be writing like this, it would be more like :OMG ihms so odrunhk an ddai fele grae t !

Trust me, ive seen how i write when im drunk.Not a pretty sight. At all.
Right now, im high and drunk on...HAPPYNESS.forwhat..? LIFE. GAHHHAH

2010-02-10T20:22:00.000+01:00

Its a long way to fall.... oh oh oh
This is how i roll.

*Facepalm*

It's gonna take a lot to take me away from you

2010-02-04T16:23:00.002+01:00

I cant believe it. Guh, so unreal. I feel like screaming and jumping, which i have done already today, but this time, im screaming cause im happy. Cause im so freaking, stupid, foolish, and just a kid, im alive, now really i mean this, not just because one detail that happend yesterday, but loads of stuff. I may be doing negative stuff, but at least I feel great.

Look me in the eyes, tell me what I want to hear, and fool me once again.

2010-02-02T23:36:00.003+01:00

And I paint hearts everywhere, and picture your name inside of them. And imagine that my heart has your name written all over it.
I know how easily you can make everything better. And how in a second you can ruin my world.
And I also know how little you care about me. And Im also aware of how stupid I am, for being to afraid of putting an end to the thing that hurts me the most.

wild banana out of control!

2010-01-31T14:47:00.004+01:00

Cutted my hair, coloured it, hm... still feel the need for a change. Bigger one maybe. Big things are great. we all know. BLABLABLA. *Facepalm*
Ill never drink again, i promise.

Mwaha

2010-01-24T21:52:00.001+01:00

And im in the game. Tired of sleeping, tired of being sad. If you can play, why cant i?

2010-01-21T20:21:00.003+01:00

Saker blir värre och värre varenda jävla sekund. Jag hatar den här dagen, jag hatar den här jävla veckan. Allt är skit, allt är kaos. Även om jag bara varit lugnt, hur länge som helst nu. Jag vill bara lägga alla känslor på hyllan. Skita i absolut allt. Kanske bli full, komma bort i droger och fester, bara för att dö så där, utan någon jävla tanke.

Ive got scars in my mind, ive got scars on my body, i dont mind.

2010-01-20T17:33:00.002+01:00

I just want to scream. I want to fall down and cry and scream. Like babies do. Though when babies cry its not as creepy as seeing a 15 year old girl laying on the floor kicking and screaming that she doesnt want to breath anymore. I want to be a baby again, when nothing could hurt me. So i can scream when ever i want for no reason at all.

Avatar has a whole 8.7 points on IMDB, hope its worth my precious time.

2010-01-17T12:39:00.007+01:00

Uhm, ok, it seems like im only writing on my blog now a days cause my cousin tells me to... hm.
Well i woke up like an hour ago or so i believe, i would of probably slept more if it wasnt because of my cousin coming up to my side of the bed and telling me that i reminded her of a cat when i did funny noises cause i didnt want to get up- ugh
So now im in front of the comp, texting with E, dont know why the hell he is texting me so much? But hes fun (:
And later i am going to see Avatar with my cousin and my aunt :o Yay /happyface.
So ... LATER!

Camcam the cow !

2010-01-16T21:49:00.003+01:00

Normally Julle bulle (julia) calls me cam cam the burger for some strange reason, but now apparently im Camcam the cow according to my cousin Catalina. Well its not my fault u have so much effin candy and sweets at your home! ITS YUMMY STUFF!

Im deluxe o.o

2010-01-16T19:23:00.003+01:00

Well im sitting here getting combed by my cousin (though we arent rly related) Catalina. Dont know really what else to write she just commented ''write on your blog!'' So... i am. Mwaha.
I feel so rich getting combed, i should order some food while shes at it. Like this morning when i just stood infront the door waiting for her to come and open it. I feel like Rick James. God it feels good to have a slave. No wonder people like to just sit on their lazy ass all day and getting everything served, its so comfortable... gosh! Im buying her!

When its dark i may become a little bit strange. Like a wolfwomen or something. Yeah im awesome, thanks.

2010-01-14T20:36:00.003+01:00

So right now im freezing my ass off really. And my eyes are itchy, and my hair is dirty, and now my BACK started to itch. Shitcakes i hate this crap.
Oh and my lips are bleeding, ugh... All i can do is complain it seems like, though i got a cupcake like an hour ago so im still kinda happy.
Ive been avoiding W for two days now, today i finally decided that i was strong enough to see him, but he wasnt there... Kinda relieved, kinda not. Dont know if ill manage to feel as strong tomorrow. I sent M a text before yesterday I believe, he still hasnt replied.
Maybe its good though, no M, no W. I cant really expect that every thing will go as i plan or want to, just need to... lay back and let the things go their way.
I do got some new videos and pics of school, so ill upload them before i go to bed i guess.
Hm... Pointless to say goodnight, would be like saying goodnight to my self. It is pretty cold though, a hug would be nice sir.

And run from them... from them, with no direction...

2010-01-10T22:36:00.003+01:00

Oh... how can this be, im feeling...scared in for tomorrow? First school day, ...hmm I was pretty happy about it a few hours ago actually. Meeting my friends, just being crazy old Cami, screaming and jumping and making stupid jokes etc. But, not just scared in for school, its more like, when school starts i will finally realize that its a freaking new year? Or new stuff are happening. Or that im just probably gonna meet W on my way home again.
Everyone says how they are feeling that this year is going to be awesome well, huh, I DONT! I only left dramas from last year so they could be solved this year. I dont want to uhgh...
haven't felt this kind of anxiety since... hm, before i moved to Chile. I dont want to meet W. I dont want to like someone that doesnt like me back, at least not in the same way. I dont want to MISS W. I dont understand why i even like M? . I just want to live ffs...
Har ingen jävla ork just nu. Usch.

2010-01-08T20:59:00.001+01:00

So i asked questions in a forum about how normal it is or what i should watch out for with age differences and shit. I dont want to have sex, apparently i should watch out so i dont get raped by him. Oh... KILL ME!

And ill keep on dreaming.

2010-01-07T20:39:00.002+01:00

And yesterday the truth came out. And yesterday was the first night i got to hold you an entire night. And today was the first day you kissed me in public.
Am i stupid for smiling and feeling all fuzzy and warm inside?

Gah, i have a terrible headache and i feel like im dying. Well... like my head is dying. I do feel well otherwise.
Im drinking ''Love''-tea and reading a book i got from my brothers girlfriend, its pretty entertaining... but its impossible to read, my head hurts way to much. KILL IT KILL IT!

You are deleted.

2010-01-03T21:16:00.003+01:00

And the dark takes over my mind. All i can see is the light from my cellphone, where i read your words over and over again, wondering if you will ever notice that im gone, if you will ever contact me.
Did you ever listen to me, did you ever see me, did you just once think about me?

Parties are fun with our without alcohol, i just chose to not remember the fun parts.

2010-01-03T20:57:00.000+01:00

Oh, happy new year. I woke up with a terrible headache in a shoe store. Oh yes. And ive been vomiting ever since.

zombies still rule.

2010-01-02T21:14:00.002+01:00

My stomach is like a big lump, ball of puke, thats what i do now a days, puke... Uh, i dont even dare to eat.
Im like a zombie, just with the quite opposite part that i dont eat at all. I wasnt even in the mood for ice cream, and i stopped eating the candy we had at the movies yesterday. Its... amazing. And im not a zombie cause of the non eating part, im just... really a zombie, quiet and...cold, and dead. Its like he lives in my body. I feel like i have to come clean. Life is great at the moment, but im like a big question mark. He has taken over my body, i want everything with him, but the most painful part is that i have no clue what he wants with me. I know its impossible, it just is. And im afraid, all the time that he will get exhausted of me. While im here dying for him hes out there having sex with someone else. ... Im dying, thats the word.

Happy bday to me!

2009-12-29T20:05:00.004+01:00

Wow... Not such a tragic day after all?

I was suprised this morning when my brother woke me up by his terrible singing voice, after him came Boel (his girlfriend) and her parents struggling to sing the spanish Happy birthday song, they failed big time but it was hilarious and pretty sweet actually.
Then I got cake and presents, yay me!

I also got something a couple of hours ago, a Quartz (bergkristall, cuarzo) and the best part is that it has an golden ''M'' written on it. Its my M-stone, as I call it...
Apparently its supposed to heal and you have to use it or give it a special purpose.
Its obvious what the purpose of my M-stone is right? The M kind of tells it all...

Nananana.... /Happy face.

I DONT WANT TO.

2009-12-28T21:16:00.005+01:00

Ugh, another birthday tomorrow... My birthday. Tragic horrible stuff.
I dont really know why but ive never liked birthdays, mine at least. Its fun with cake, that always makes me cheer up a bit. But now I can just feel it, the fucking pain and anxiety came early this year. Ugh.
Its not cause something boring is going to happen... Its just that im so used to that my bday always kind of suck. Its like a day of... sadness. My mom kind of walks around with sad eyes and a big fake smile on my bdays, I do aswell, its obviously always winter in December so its dark outside and im more of a summer person really, and my dad always forgets to call, or maybe just forgets that its my bday. I wonder if this person is going to forget that its my bday tomorrow... If so, not even cake is going to cheer me up.
And worst part this year, I dont even have my friends near by, or my mom, or my sister :(
But ill survive, Ill try to do the best of it, im pretty good on faking smiles.

2009-12-28T14:01:00.002+01:00

Varför skulle jag inte välja stigarna för? Ifall någon välkomnar mig säger jag inte nej.
Jag är inte en person som gillar att gå rakt fram, I like to spice things up.
Du kanske inte har läst det jag sagt förr. Men dina ord och onödiga kommentarer är inget mer än det, onödiga. Jag kanske försöker få dig att reagera, så svårt verkar det inte vara, ett enkelt försök för att få ha lite kul, jag är trots allt i Sundsvall. Igår försökte jag inget ont, men du började med dina dryga kommentarer, inte ens försökte jag få något liknande ett patetiskt vänskap, bara någon konversation, visa dig att jag har vuxit ifrån det och att jag är något likt mogen för att säga hej, nästan säga fred.
Men jag säger det igen ''Dina onödiga kommentarer skrämmer inte mig, rör mig inte ett dugg. Jag är trygg och varm.''

FFS

2009-12-27T21:21:00.003+01:00

Dina onödiga kommentarer skrämmer inte mig, rör mig inte ett dugg. Jag är trygg och varm.
-I actually didnt notice that I wrote it on swedish after I was done writing it, sorry-

Things are great, not really trying to prove anything, just saying that I feel... good.
I woke up today a bit to early from what I would of liked but I actually dont like nightmares so im glad I woke up and better yet at exactly that moment in the dream.
Trying to think about other things I started to write about a special person, as I was writing I got a text message, suprise suprise, it was from my special person, couldnt help to get all excited and happy, as I knew at that point that I really didnt have any energy to keep on going with so many stuff happening in my life he made me feel happy and all fuzzy and warm inside, still with no energy, but happy, thanks.
As i kept on texting with him i think he filled me up with energy, with every text.
Gosh, I always feel so... creeped out when i write about ''loving'' feelings, but I dont with him... I even managed to tell him something incredibly cute today!
I should winn an award! Or maybe he should... Thanks M :) <3

Haha :)

Im a banana, im a banana!

2009-12-23T12:51:00.004+01:00

OH, time for a real blog post now!
So as i said, im in Sundsvall, a couple of hours away from Stockholm, its actually quite fun here, calm and just easy going.
Im here with my brother and his girlfriend (we are living in her parents house :O!)
Its nice to just be away from all the dramas or just stockholm really, and my mom, stepdad and younger sister are in Chile, which is fun for them, they needed a little trip (2 months...)
Wow, i have really nothing to say.*

So, enjoy!

Oh dude im laughing my ass off!

Pwnage /flexes

2009-12-23T12:37:00.004+01:00

Some people are stupid, maybe thats not the word really, some people are just dull! Some people think they know so much about others and some people think that everyone is thinking about them!

Sorry, i have real problems in my life to waste it on unnecessary people or thoughts.
Though it might seem weird that im actually wasting time on writing this now.
Well im in Sundsvall, waiting for my aunt to come pick me up, read something, started to laugh like a crazy person and now im writing this ! 8) yay.

Some people irritate me, not cause i have this lovable theory of just living life and they dont, its because they are simply born in a way that disgusts me, doesnt have anything to do with enjoying life etcetc, has to do with the fact that they are just simply annoying, boring, full of em selves and etc.

I love my life, even if i have an arm full of scars, or if i used to cry my self to sleep before, now i have reminders that ive killed the demons once and i can do it once again.
I dont regret the stuff I do, I learn from my mistakes, and im becoming an expert on mistakes! But I like it, I said a few months ago that i wanted some real dramas, and now i have LOADS! And i repeat, I love my life and i wasnt happier with you.

Sundance kid - Kent

2009-12-18T23:21:00.003+01:00

Gah, winter break! Im so effin happy :D
My parents are going away to Chile for two freaking months, you know what that means!? IM FREE! gahhhh!

So im gonna tell more about whats been going on.
Ive been... pretty happy most of the time, but im confused as fuck. Ive been trying to just do things right but for some strange reason things just dont go as planned! But i think things are getting clearer, feels like it though.

I just want to say, to a person that i really hope is reading this - GOSH IM HAPPY YOURE OUT OF MY LIFE! -
I know this might sound so bitchy, but... i really am! And i needed to just say that, maybe even scream it to his face. I might even sound so incredibly immature, but i just dont CARE. A person who goes around thinking that he is god (I know you havent said that, but saying that u have a deal with god makes you a dick inmediately) is a boring person, boring ! Yeah i have my serious moments, smart geeky moments or whatever, but I do have fun! I know how to live a life, I mean, people say life is short, i think If it is so freaking short, why arent you out having fun or just screaming stuff that make no sense? Cause we normally dont make any sense anyways so FUCK IT ALL! :D
Its one of this -fuck everything- moment, i love these moments.

9 minutes of retardedness. 9 minutes of my retard laughing

2009-12-16T14:39:00.002+01:00

Changes

2009-12-09T19:29:00.004+01:00

Pics by Antonella Arismendi

The postal service - brand new colony

2009-12-08T19:24:00.000+01:00

I want to take you far from the cynics in this town
And kiss you on the mouth
We'll cut our bodies free from the tethers of this scene,
Start a brand new colony
Where everything will change,
We'll give ourselves new names (identities erased)
The sun will heat the grounds
Under our bare feet in this brand new colony
Everything will change.

Van she - Strangers

2009-11-29T21:16:00.003+01:00

So ive been thinking of doing a list with things that I have to do and should do to make my life even more happy and that will make me move on from stupid things that ive been holding on from the past!
This is going to be fun, but im probably gonna do it tomorrow, cause now im so effin tired! Gnight!

Wow

2009-11-29T12:29:00.004+01:00

Found this pic on Lookbook.nu and i cant really make up my mind, is this piercing totally hot or does it just seem scary?
Either way, the chick looks hot.

Right me up ..

2009-11-29T12:16:00.003+01:00

Gah, crazy weekend!
I met up with Julia yesterday in Solna c and we found the most adorable brahs!!! We had to buy em, yay. Then we just went a bit crazy everywhere and met up with Victoria, we didnt do a lot but later i just went over to Bears place and slept over, humm, yeah, crazy night!

Oh yeah, im a drug addict.

Erik Hassle is my new secret stash <3

2009-11-26T19:17:00.002+01:00

If holding hands is too descre
tLet's make out in the middle of the street
If this flowery just ain't enough for you
Help me God, tell me what to do
Couldn't be more trueIsn't it obvious that I love you

I was wrong from the start from the bottom of my heart I apologize What I did to you was hurtful
What I’m going through is hurtful

Every beat of my heart is killing me slow
Love me to pieces oh-oh-oh-ohh
Deep in the dark I sleep with the ghost
Love me to pieces oh-oh-oh-ohh

I dont like two persons, im confused, im a bitch.

2009-11-24T18:37:00.005+01:00

No guilty feelings yet, but lots of thoughts about how i should do the right thing, and what the right thing to do is.
I could keep on being selfish, Or i could do one right thing and still be selfish, or blow the whole thing and move on, which would be the ultimate right thing to do.
But i know that i have to DELETE DELETE do one thing right and im gonna, just need some time to figure it out. Hmm, life sucks, but i like it, finally it feels like im having some none-fake-dramaqueen-drama, and this so called ''drama'' is not even bothering me, doesnt affect me in a negative way... But still i know the difference between wrong and right, and maybe I should stick to doing the right thing, oh, so boring.

Its time again!

2009-11-20T19:56:00.003+01:00

O-m-fucking-g, i think it was the first day i saw so many hot guys gathered in the same effin building! AMAZING.
It was like orgasms to my eyes, OUR eyes.
Jules and I.
Anyways, school is going fine, only prob is i have to figure out if what i wanna choose, make up artist or psychologist... tough shit.

Life is going pretty damn good. Haha, im living it to the full, and the best part is, NO GUILTY FEELINGS?! Im getting good on being a real bitch ... omg. Well, no, thats not the word. Im just enjoying life, as I should do. IDELETE DELETE dont care about stupid dramas, or what people say, im not a slut, im just a girl who simply enjoys life... hihi.
Sad that no one, and then i mean NO ONE, knows what im talking about haha.

Not a good day to try to write on my blog, i think ill just confuse ppl.
OH TEXT! omg

Bai :B

Ill do it right this time.

2009-11-16T17:24:00.001+01:00

I feel an extreme need for a BIG, weird and different change.

Fuck this blows.

2009-11-15T16:09:00.002+01:00

Yes, its one of those fucking retarded days.
Good retarded though, i feel rather alive. - Wow thats awesome! ...tards.
Anyways, my point is, i had a long conversation with my friend Laura yesterday, about how dramatic and how cowardly some people are. I mean, Im 14, why should there be a big fucking drama war if i go to a party, drink, and start making out with a guy ive only been dancing with for the past... 2 songs? COME ON!
I mean, ill rather do that NOW then when im like 30+. Who doesnt agree?
No, i would not be a big whore or a slut or whatever you wanna call me, i would just be ENJOYING LIFE.
Gosh im so tired of stupid dramas and shit. Just live a little. PLEASE.
.... GAAHHH.

Lover I dont have to love...

2009-11-13T10:31:00.003+01:00

I dont know why but it just fits in so perfectly to how i feel at the moment. ...

Lover i dont have to love...
I want a lover i dont have to love, i want a boy whos decided to give me fuck.
Lover i dont have to love...
Then my mind went black.
Bad actors, with bad habits, some sad singers, they just play tragic...
The vans leaving, lets just keep touching, lets just keep singing.
I want a lover i dont have to love. I want a boy whos so drunk he doesnt talk.
But but you... youre, oh such pretty words, but lifes no story book, loves an excuse to get hurt, do u like to hurt?
Then hurt me.

I fall when you leave.

2009-11-08T15:37:00.002+01:00

I hate the times when my mind takes over my body, I hate the times when I cant decide between right or wrong.
I hate the times when I feel that I need to be just a little bit more free.
I hate the times when I know im just gonna fuck things up again, but I have to admit that I love the feeling.
Its not a bad feeling, exhausting maybe, but choosing wrong always feels more exiting.
I dont like to walk straight forward, im not that kind of girl.

I need something real.

Im screwed.

2009-10-29T15:40:00.000+01:00

How should i start this?
Hmm... so uhm... im happy? I guess, but at the same time im like going crazy for some reason, weird huh? gah, ill just like... put on a song or something..

Gosh i miss the times when i used to listen to this song with Laura and Valentina in our rooms and scream to the lyrics...

O-m-fucking-g

2009-10-28T11:17:00.000+01:00

My mom is in love...

i know you want me....

shit fucks -dies-

2009-10-28T11:10:00.000+01:00

Im panicking (misspelled?) for like no reason... i think..
I hate this morning, or not really ... well yes i do and im talking like a crazy person...
The only thing calming me down is the soothing sounds of the band Shout out louds, but he has a kind of anxiety filled voice, doesnt really help much, but its something!
And my mom is spamming me telling me that i have to clean the house, so yeah, im like a freaking house keeper. House keeping...
Im tired,, guuuhh..

Skins heartheartheart

2009-10-28T09:53:00.000+01:00

Gaahhh, cant stop watching it !!

The city is at war

2009-10-27T11:46:00.000+01:00

Maybe this should be a fucking drama queen? Whatever, i have to write it.

Some people should just grow up.
Stop acting like youre still 15 with your hormones going wild cause at your age they arent, its all in your mind babez.
Life is what you make it, its what you want it to be, if you think your life is like a freaking rutine then go break some rules, but in your mind you should always know that you are a freaking adult, dont act like a fool.
Take some responsibilty, you've got a boyfriend, a job and youre planning to get pregnant, how the fuck are you gonna raise your child if you still act like a 15 year old brat?!

Then another case, you have children, a husband and a beautiful home, still so youre not even capable of keeping your family together. Youre still young and immature but you try to act like youre the mom of everyone.
No, im not your child, go watch your own kids and look at what they are doing cause i dont give a fuck about what u think i should or shouldnt do!
Though this happend a long time a go im still pissed that you think you can be the boss of other peoples lifes.
If you really did care you would have asked me why the fuck i was moving away, and this goes to the rest of you too, you wouldnt have told me how crappy chile is and how crappy your experiences in chile were. You know what bitches, my experiences were GREAT! fucking awesome, cause MY dad actually did have money to keep me.

STOP BEING SO FUCKING LAME, is it really necessary for a 14 year old to tell you to grow up when youre already 20 years up!?
LIFE IS WHAT YOU WANT IT TO BE. Stop complaining and making bad excuses of why you are so exhausted with life and TAKE YOUR OVERSIZE ASS AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Dont get pregnant if you later are gonna say that the only reason you live is because of ONE THING. Dont get pregnant if you one day ''love'' a guy and the next day you suprisingly enough love another dude.

WHY DOESNT THE WORLD GROW AND LEARN.
Fucking retards.

This is only meant to some special people who used to call them self my ''family''

Dr.pepper makes me ...

2009-10-26T21:41:00.000+01:00

Burp burp *twitches* burp..

Yes, i love my shoes <3

2009-10-26T16:34:00.000+01:00

Pictures = Memories, why not just make happy memories?

2009-10-26T15:01:00.000+01:00

My 13th birthday party, Chile.
Valentinas head, Laura laughing and im hiding my fucked up laugh.

Lisa and I, this summer.
Victor was there too!

Laura, Me and Valentina, on our way to the beach, Chile 2007.

Fernandas suprise party, Chile 2007.

My french cousin Nicky and I, singing to Placebo's new album, Chile 2008.

Me and Julia (Julle Bulle), waiting for gym-class to start 2009.

Me and Valentina, the day after my 13th bday party, Chile 2008.

Simplify

2009-10-26T14:26:00.000+01:00

So... ive noticed really that everyone in the 7-8th grade are going through an emo period, like the one i had two years ago... And i realize and i can fully admit that i was a big drama queen and that i used to make a little little tiny problem into a über huge problem.
And ive realized that a problem that would of ''ruined'' my life 2 years ago doesnt even bother me now.
Its pretty amazing...

Ive also realized that if i wouldnt have known Lisa i would probably not be as open minded as i am.
Im the kind of person who tries to accept different tastes, even if i may not like something i try to see the little good things and make them into the biggest things. Being negative is just way to exhausting...
Im growing, dont judge me just yet, im learning.

drugzzzzzz <3

2009-10-19T20:45:00.000+02:00

And run from them... from them, with no direction...

2009-10-16T22:04:00.000+02:00

Idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot...
Hello, again...
Hmm, school has been okey, as always ofc.
School work and homeworks are going great actually, and im starting to search for high schools, yay me.
But im an idiot. Gaaahh...
Its amazing how i could let someone steal my thoughts...

Fucking drama queens.

2009-10-16T21:55:00.000+02:00

I have to get you out of my mind, youre impossible. You fucking idiot.
I think the best thing for me right now is to run away. Stop walking forward and take a step to the left or to the right, I need to make a mistake and right now you seem to be the biggest mistake on the list.

2009-10-10T16:52:00.000+02:00

Why arent you coming back?

We are radio hysteria

2009-10-10T15:43:00.000+02:00

Watch out! Cause im just to fake for the world!

2009-10-10T12:41:00.000+02:00

Look out!
Cause I'm just too fake for the world
I know it's just a game to me
I'm just too fake you see
I wish i didn't have to be but watch out
I got too much soul for the world
It's breaking my heart in two
I got too much soul for you
I don't like it but it's true...

A real friend is someone who can touch your heart even if youre in the other side of the world.

2009-10-09T17:55:00.000+02:00

Cause i need my friends to know that i love them :)

Make up.

2009-10-09T17:43:00.000+02:00

Cause im just to fake for love..

I dont have time to stop texting!!

2009-10-09T17:23:00.000+02:00

''yes mom! Im studying!!!''

Quote

2009-10-09T14:38:00.000+02:00

''i wish i could have a mirror right infront of me all the time, cause some ppl are so gross i just wanna see myself insted.'' Gregory Gorgeous

facebook loves me

2009-10-09T11:28:00.001+02:00

Who are you in Vittra i frösunda (my school)
My result was : Camila Chavez, my self of course (what a suprise)

-You are the coolest latina chick that has ever existed, you are the best on finding solutions to problems and listening. You are the geeks goddess and you love over size fashion *kitching* -

Haha, big t-shirts for the win!!!

Fucking drama queens. F****

2009-10-07T19:38:00.000+02:00

F****** texted me today. The last time he had texted me Lisa and I had scared him off by calling him but the coward just hung up. And now he texted me, telling me to stop blocking him on msn?

DUDE, i dont even have you on msn anymore! I deleted your ass! Get over it.

humantoyz :D

2009-10-07T16:42:00.000+02:00

+
= Same crap (but actually quite good)

Tokio hotels new album Humanoid was realised yesterday, or last week... well yesterday in south america at least, whatever.
My point is that the new album was almost a copy of Cinema bizarre's latest album ''Toyz''.
Plus that Bills voice has gotten softer and more ''womenly'' like, and we all know that there isnt a lot of manly going on with Cinema bizarre's singer!
Bill and the rest of the band told their fans (i am one of 'em, yay!) to expect something totally different with the new album. Well I guess i wasnt prepared for such a change!!

But they are lucky that I like glam rock/pop/weird music and sounds or else they would have lost a big big fan!!

Still love tokio hotel <3.

Feel the love.

2009-10-07T15:58:00.000+02:00

School went ok, slow but ok.
And I feel like crap, hormones gone wild.
So i went to school only with mascara and concealer + my huge adidas sweater! Yes, fashion is my middle name... ?
Im sick of this crap... Plus that A**** is taking over my freaking brain once again, horse poo.
And I went home from school earlier cause i cant be in school, feel too bad. Poor cami.

Fucking drama queens - DRACULA

2009-10-05T17:44:00.000+02:00

Okey, so ''fucking drama queens'' is like a category that im gonna be writing shit that are '' dramatic '' like O-M-G i broke my nail D:! But stuff that actually happens to me (who gives a damn if i break a nail? I know that i dont!)
Well i already have one, and then i said : he didnt even say hello, fucking bastard . or something like that, and i was talking about dracula boy.

AND ''fucking drama queens'' are back! AND STAYING!

- I met him today! DRACULA BOY! omg, he was gonna cut his hair, so he wanted me to go with him, so cute :3
I like him <3 Anyways, thats it for now ;)

''i love my rainbow family, we are like a pack of skittles''- jeffree star.

2009-10-05T13:36:00.000+02:00

Gosh, so much Jeffree Star going on today! But, i can never get enough of him, though i dont really like his bitchy personality, but hes hot and o-m-g i love his style!

Well today i stayed home from school, i woke up at 3 am cause i had a freaking nightmare and i couldnt fall back to sleep! So guess if im sleepy? And at the moment im sitting in the living room, trying to keep myself warm under a blanket and watching tv with my laptop on my lap, lap laptop, laplap, lap dance... ?
And im trying to study, i have to write a paper for my swedish clas for this wednesday... seriously gotta get started with that!!!

Ill be back.

Make up gives me confidence - Jeffree Star

2009-10-05T11:29:00.000+02:00

As you probably know I love make up! And one of my favorite blogs is having a competition so you can win a lipgloss from make up store (Make up store is like my favorite place to buy make up and brand aswell as MAC, only prob is that is über expensive!)
Linda Hallberg is her name, and shes amazing! She totally has a spot between the rest of my favorite make up artists, and i visit her blog everyday for tips and ideas and so on.

Click on the pic and you'll go to her blog!
Or click here and you'll go directly to the competition.

Im a guestblogger.

2009-10-02T18:28:00.000+02:00

I guest blogged on Jules blog, and suprised her with that pretty pic of her that i fixed :D
Why dont you read her blog? ;)

www.jullsandvicks.blogg.se .

I LOVE....

2009-10-02T17:42:00.001+02:00

PINK...

GREEN...

I LOVE COLORS

Yum yum .

2009-10-02T17:24:00.000+02:00

Thats my breakfast.

Fucking drama queens.

2009-10-01T16:34:00.001+02:00

He didnt even say hello, fucking bastard.

I wanna make some noise, alright alright!

2009-09-28T13:53:00.000+02:00

GAAAAHHH, well im gonna start by telling you that i was so effin pissed at school, fucking Hassan ( a guy ) cant stop being a morown!!!
But ok, our music teacher (freaking bitch by the way) was sick today! SO YAY US! Jules and I had really no energy to stay in school either just to read a fucking english book (the book is actually quite good but whateva) so thank god that she lives near the school so we took our stuff and now we are at her place with Vicks :D!

Ill write more later, enjoy fucktard ^^

Come and suprise me...

2009-09-27T13:55:00.000+02:00

Well, ill start by telling you that my night with dracula boy went great, we went to the movies and saw the final destination 3D, it was awesome.
But my morning wasnt as great, not really diffrent to any other sunday morning...
And right now im colouring my hair brown, insted of the 3-4 different brownish colours i had before, so its supposed to all be the same dark chocolate brown now, ima go see the result in some minutes.
And after that im gonna go and meet my dear Lisa.
Thank you, and good bye.

Dracula dracula, come suck my blood.

2009-09-26T16:47:00.000+02:00

Okey, so i have a date with Dracula boy, Wish me luck ? ....

chocolate cake :B

2009-09-21T20:00:00.000+02:00

Hello, havent had a lot to tell these past days, so that explains why i havent been writing.
Well actually i did meet Lisa yesterday and Victor, seperately unfortunately, but it was still really fun ^^
After that i had been with Victor i went home, it was already dark outside even if it was only 19 something, and when i got home i got pleasent but kinda anxiety filled suprise, yupp, Dracula boy and his family had come to our place for the evening, so i was just standing there looking at him with a foolish smile and a short and nervous ''hello''. Hahaha, its was funny though, our families always disturb us with retarded jokes about us getting together and so on :P

Well thats all i have to tell, oh yea, and i did a chocolate cake today, cause i felt like eating something sweet o.o

Haha, enjoy.

Happy b-day Laura, i miss you a lot and you mean so much to me, i hope you had a freakingly amazing time on your birthday! I love you my beloved friend :D

Un verdadero amigo es quien puede tocar tu corazon aunque este al otro lado del mundo, en las buenas y en las malas amiga ! Right?

No more fake dramas.

2009-09-16T20:17:00.000+02:00

I need something real.

Hehey!

2009-09-16T19:31:00.001+02:00

So, new day at school! so effin boring. But ima tell you about something that isnt as boring! :D!

Well yesterday i met up with Jules, Damon and Jean robert, just to play around and so on, and im gonna make a list of all the things that happend!

I hit myself freakingly hard in the bus - Well, i had just met jules and we were super exited etc, so we went in to the bus playing around and running, and when i was about to sit down i see this really hot guy and i was running past his seat, well when i was looking at him i hit my self in the head SO FUCKING HARD! that happens when youre tall -.-!!!

2. We see two little mini Torsaks and Andreas in the subway - Ill explain! Well Torsak and Andreas are what we could call... the school ''gangsters'', and well in the subway we saw two little guys exactly like them!! Haha, so we started walking after them a bit and Jules and i kept screaming ''Retards'' after them! And we got so freaking scared when they decided to stop and wait for us hahaha! Then we got rid of em, but an hour later we were in the subway again and so were they!!! Hahaha

3. We meet up with Denny! - We had just been in the library using a computer, and we read on facebook that Denny also was in Solna Centrum (where we were) and 15 minutes later we went to buy some ice cream and slushys and we saw him with his skateboard all red and he had injured his hip! Poor Denny! D:
But it was still funny to see him there ^^

4. The police stopped us !!!!! - Ok, so to the most freaky part of the day!! Damon and Jean robert were waiting with Jules and me for the bus, but they were gonna take the subway after, but when the bus came and jules and i already were in the bus i see two cops stoping Damon and JR and another cop stoping the bus! So i told Jules and she was like ''OMG WTF?! O_o '' and then i heard a voice behind us telling us to get off the bus! I look behind me and there was another cop!!! I got so freaking scared and i cant stop laughing when i remember how scared Jules was!!!
Well they just told us to get off the bus asked us who else was waiting for that same bus, and we just pointed at a guy, and then the cops told me and Jules to get back on!? Well, we didnt get shit, but Damon called later and said that they were looking for some kids but they had mistaken us for them -.-!

Well, those are just 4, im not gonna tell more cause its way too much!
But enjoy! :D
Kisses from Moi and Jules ;)

Emo/scene make up.

2009-09-12T14:09:00.000+02:00

+ =?

Best day in a long freaking time!

2009-09-11T17:21:00.001+02:00

So, every year the nineth (spelling?) graders have to take a picture, Spex pic, as we call it, its really fun and we get to dress up as what ever we wanna, and well... here u get to see my fucked up clas! :D Enjoy.

Ta inga order.

2009-09-10T18:12:00.000+02:00

Heres a pic of my make up today! I dont think you can really see the colors so much but ill explain! Well, i started of with primer ofc, then a really pretty shimmery silver colour as base, then on the crease y blended in some shimmery brown, then with a liquid black eyeliner i did a really pretty and pointy black line on the lower eye :D

And the song of today is! : Kapten röd - ta inga order.

Sex and the city!

2009-09-10T17:12:00.001+02:00

Back to the 80's with Sex and the city!

You sing a song from my lonely soul.

2009-09-10T16:42:00.000+02:00

Hello people.
Today was a fun day, well, i cant say that any day is lame, only when it rains!
Im sorry to say that i didnt have time to take any pictures today at all!
I was busy trying to figure out how i was gonna present my work about africa tomorrow, and a man who survived the second world war came to our school to talk about the war and his experiences.
It was really exciting! I had a big phase a few years ago when i couldnt stop reading about the second world war and to hear such an amazing story being told infront of you by a person who was there was a great experience.

Well i cant think about anything to tell, but i will, its still early so im probably(obviously) gonna write more today!

Enjoy!

Dessie kissie pissie pussie

2009-09-09T21:46:00.000+02:00

Okey, so has anyone read that apparantly Dessie (desireenilsson.blogg.se) had sex with a 25 year old, i mean, come on, BIG DEAL!?
If she did its her prob, and ok shes 14, just my age, but, when someone feels ready to have sex its their prob, yeah ofc it doesnt sound right, but in their mind obviously it doesnt seem wrong?
Cant really explain my point, but, when she feels ready, its HER problem, her desition, right?
And the age, why should it matter so damn much!?
I still hate her cause yeah she is a slut, but this fact or rumor doesnt make her more of a slut, shes stil a tramp! :D

You take my breath away!

2009-09-09T19:49:00.000+02:00

Sorry for the bad make up today, totally forgot the primer so it smudged on the crease! But it was a really cute green color and a dark smokey green on the crease :D

Song of today: The knife - You take my breath away!

i Knew it was a crime, i did it anyways!

2009-09-09T19:23:00.001+02:00

Hello people.
Today was a really fun day actually, and i suck at taking pics at school but maybe tomorrow! :D
Ive been this whole day with Björn, sara, ines, and johan, and a bit with my Jules, i really feel like we are getting ready with this africa projekt, yay us!
And i went to Rinkeby with Damon, Jean-robert, Björn and Johan, hahaha hilarious, as soon as the train stopped at Rinkeby they started acting like they were gonna rape me cause rinkeby is like this super gangstah hood place XD
Then i followed Björn to stockholm so he could buy some really pretty ''emo'' gloves :D
Haha, well dont have a lot to tell, pics are coming tomorrow, and soon ill update you on my make up of today, yay :D

enjoy

Oh when i see you...

2009-09-08T18:54:00.001+02:00

BEEP TEST BEEP BEEP run bitch!

2009-09-08T17:37:00.000+02:00

Hello people!
Well today i had my class picture taken, hurray -.-
As i said in my last upload Julia lent me her shirt, that says: I love the OOO'S, haha so stupid, but its pwetty.

And i had an effin beep test! Its like a running test, fucking sucked, was impossible to even walk after it! shitcakes!
Haha poor Jules hurt her foot while running,! And congratz to damon who managed to run up to level ten! f* my life i only managed to lvl 4,6 -.-!!!!!! I need to start training, seriously!

well I just came home and my little sister is in her room playing with her friend, i believe her name is Davinia, they are adorable!! hahaha, and they are singing to hanna montana, im laughing my ass off!

And i havent studied shit on the effin africa projekt, or well i have! but not as much as i should of, so no sleep for me.

Haha, enjoy, pussi - A la Harun! <3

Damon!

2009-09-07T21:28:00.000+02:00

Hahaha nawh, damdam is happy :B!

WOWO

2009-09-07T20:47:00.000+02:00

ok, so.. wow i have nothing to tell!
my day wasnt lame, no not at all O_O
but uhm, just cant think about anything at the moment
AND TOMORROW ITS LIKE CLASS PIC!!
like whata eeffff.
And hahahaha ima borrow julias t shirt that she had for her school pic aswell, so we are gonna have the same tee ! TEEHEE

And i have a school projekt about africa, hurray for aids! They r like trying to scare us so we never touch a boy!
boys suck my statement remains! Aids isnt the only reason i aint having sex! <.
Well the only guys who dont suck are Damon! damdam, and harun! and today with julia and damon we bought like chocolate puddings and chocolate bars hahaha, fattys! SO GOOD omg!

Thats pretty much it!
I am ninja you are ninja, nananana
Im like obsessed with ninja songs, O-M-G!

Well im a lava head! Bye :B

You all suck!

2009-09-06T18:33:00.000+02:00

Not even older guys can hold em selfes!
Its like im created so guys can lie to me... O-M-G
fuck you all, guys suck, relationships suck <.<
TIRED OF THIS CRAP, seriously, ima be totally single for 4 years, then if guys can decide to stop lying to me ill be willing to look for a guy, but fuck you all right now, FUCK YOU ALL TO HELL

Bandages bandages bandages head banging

2009-09-05T17:19:00.001+02:00

Yay im home now!
Ive been out with lisa in Stockholm, she bought an awesome foundation shitty from Make up store (lovelovelove)
But uhh, i have a PROB!
And the big letters arent cause the prob is big,.. its actually quite stupid but whateva.
Well, there is a guy i kinda like, and another guy that i want to meet... the prob is that this guy i want to meet is older then me, like... way older... and the other guy is like quiet and shy and im not like that! GAH...
FUCK IT, im meeting the guy, ..
Yes... no? Should i?

Gaah, fuck my life.

lookbook.nu

2009-09-05T11:48:00.000+02:00

Favorite lookbook - outfits At the moment.

Tokio hotel!

2009-09-05T10:18:00.000+02:00

Am i the only TH-freak that heard about Kenzas contest on her blog!? IM FREAKING OUT, hahaha
Obviously i signed up for the contest but as always im not getting my hopes up cause i shouldnt nananana.
But still, just thinking about tokio hotel makes me freak out! So many fucking memories and GAHH i love em!
Ive been listening to Automatic like for 2 days non-stop, and i wont stop ffs!
Well anyways, Tokio hotel for the effin win!

I actually started listening to 'em just a few days ago again cause its impossible for me to listen to his voice without crying,
Its crazy, CRAZY, how many memories and moments come up to my mind when i listen to them. I remember how V, L and i wrote on a wall close to our school just a few days before i moved to sweden, with big letters - Cami, Laura, Valentina <3 Tokio hotel -
We always talked about th like if it was our band haha.
So tokiohotel kinda made us friends and then we noticed that our friendship was so much more then just a band.
But most of the great moments we had eachother always had one of TH songs in the background, haha.
Love you guys <3

Turn me up !

2009-09-05T09:40:00.000+02:00

Wow, so i had a freaky dream! WITH TALKING DOLLS! yeah, i know, freaky right!?
But ok, so right now im just listening to

benny benassi - turn me up

, love it.
But uhm, i have really NOTHING to tell this morning, but i have to start cleaning my room, like... really CLEAN my room, then later ima go shopping with mah Lisa bbz!

Bye peeps :D <3

Paint your face.

2009-09-04T19:57:00.000+02:00

So, when he left i got to be alone. The tears started running down my face the same second he closed the door.
I wanted to tell him that i loved him and that he should take care when he gave me a hug, but i didnt want him to hear how my voice was gonna fade away slowly while saying those words.
It was actually really nice to get some time alone to just cry out, i dont remember that i have ever cried like that, painfull crying really.
But after half an hour i decided that it was enough, so i took one of his big brown sweater and put it over my white top and putted some jeans on and went out. No make up, no fixed hair, nothing, totally ... unfixed (?)
Really proud of that actually, first time i go out without make up!
Well, i went to see lisa, sadly enough the fresh air didnt stop my tears on the way to the tunnel where we always meet so i had to run and hide my face with my hand.
And i should actually give lisa an award or something cause she can make me laugh no matter in what mood i am!
Love you <3
But the tears stopped, they had to and i feel better.
I had to paint my face, fix my hair, put on a smile, put on a positive face, make it easier for those around me so they dont piss me off. Everyones happy tappy.

No more red eyes.

The end is not near.

2009-09-04T19:56:00.000+02:00

ill be waiting until the next time brother <3

Give me some time.

2009-09-04T12:38:00.000+02:00

I cant take it...
In like half an hour he will be gone, im gonna be all alone in my room, in this house, just lost.
And gaah, my mom wont let me be! Its so frustratin', i cant do anything right, but apparantly holding my tears inside is going quite well, but it gets harder and harder.
I cant decide what to wear, nothing seems to fit good on a sad body, i cant get my make up right either, my hair is a mess and i dont really know why im fixing up anyways!? Im not even able to follow him to the airport! NO NO, cami cant go there isnt enough space in the freaking car! And even so my mom pushes me around to do everything and i feel like a freaking zombie, and everything i do, i do to slow or bad. ''Put a smile on your face!'' ''Dont be such a brat'' GOSH MOM, youre not the only one loosing a loved one, well losing sounds a bit harsh, but still! GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK!
I cant wait until im alone, to just cry out, scream maybe.
Cause later on i wont be able to cry, there is no time for tears in my world.

nanananana automatic (8)

2009-09-04T11:31:00.000+02:00

IM OBSSESED!

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!

2009-09-04T09:05:00.000+02:00

fuck my life! this morning is gonna suck monkey ballz, well, this whole effin day is gonna!
Its nine oclock i woke up like an hour ago, i got a text from fredrik, like what tha F!? havent heard from him in like 4 weeks? GO TO HELL BITCH!
then yesterday i got a text from mats? havent heard from him in like a week?!
WHORES LEAVE ME ALONE I HAVE MY DRACULA BOY! IM HAPPY WITHOUT U GUYS!
THEN, to the worst thing about today... my bro is moving to chile D:!
AMAGAD, ima die, tears suicide, kill me, kill me now.

nananananannana, WANNA GET HIGH, wanna forget D:!

Crazyness.

2009-09-01T21:51:00.000+02:00

He-hey!
Im home now, yay me, i was at saras place, CRAZYNESS! and no sara its not spelled - crazzy:nes -
Haha, seriously, it was hilarious! We were texting with Dracula boy and with some other people, and i cant understand how one simple word can make us laugh like retards!
Haha.

Well, enjoy fuckface :D!

Perezhilton.com

2009-09-01T13:12:00.001+02:00

- So hawt!
As Robert Pattinson brings the seks on the cover of Premiere france, the most appropiate phrase comes to mind: Voulez-vous coucher avec moi (ces soir)?

Yeah, we just groaned at ourself for the cheesiest of cheesy lines. But hey, we like cheese!
It makes everything better! - Perez hilton.

We all agree with you Perez!

Fatty

2009-09-01T12:24:00.001+02:00

No, no! You should never leave me home alone with goodies to eat!

Mwaha, new blogg!

2009-09-01T10:47:00.000+02:00

Well, hello there. I got so effin bored of my last blogg, - www.strangerlover.blogg.se -
And im not even sure if i want to write on that one about my new blogg! NONO!
I just want a fresh start - fresh blogg -, Something more... Cami, more wild and in the same time so sweet.
And its in english, and its going to remain in english cause I like it, oh yes.
So welcome, i hope you like reading all the crazyness that i write.

paint your face

and ima fly fly fly high high high

It's gonna take a lot to take me away from you

Look me in the eyes, tell me what I want to hear, and fool me once again.

wild banana out of control!

Mwaha

Ive got scars in my mind, ive got scars on my body, i dont mind.

Avatar has a whole 8.7 points on IMDB, hope its worth my precious time.

Camcam the cow !

Im deluxe o.o

When its dark i may become a little bit strange. Like a wolfwomen or something. Yeah im awesome, thanks.

And run from them... from them, with no direction...

And ill keep on dreaming.

You are deleted.

Parties are fun with our without alcohol, i just chose to not remember the fun parts.

zombies still rule.

Happy bday to me!

I DONT WANT TO.

FFS

Im a banana, im a banana!

Pwnage /flexes

Sundance kid - Kent

9 minutes of retardedness. 9 minutes of my retard laughing

Changes

The postal service - brand new colony

Van she - Strangers

Wow

Right me up ..

Erik Hassle is my new secret stash <3

I dont like two persons, im confused, im a bitch.

Its time again!

Ill do it right this time.

Fuck this blows.

Lover I dont have to love...

I fall when you leave.

Im screwed.

O-m-fucking-g

shit fucks -dies-

Skins *heartheartheart*

The city is at war

Dr.pepper makes me ...

Yes, i love my shoes <3

Pictures = Memories, why not just make happy memories?

Simplify

drugzzzzzz <3

And run from them... from them, with no direction...

Fucking drama queens.

We are radio hysteria

Watch out! Cause im just to fake for the world!

A real friend is someone who can touch your heart even if youre in the other side of the world.

Make up.

I dont have time to stop texting!!

Quote

facebook loves me

Fucking drama queens. F****

humantoyz :D

Feel the love.

Fucking drama queens - DRACULA

''i love my rainbow family, we are like a pack of skittles''- jeffree star.

Make up gives me confidence - Jeffree Star

Im a guestblogger.

I LOVE....

Yum yum .

Fucking drama queens.

I wanna make some noise, alright alright!

Come and suprise me...

Dracula dracula, come suck my blood.

chocolate cake :B

No more fake dramas.

Hehey!

Emo/scene make up.

Best day in a long freaking time!

Ta inga order.

Sex and the city!

You sing a song from my lonely soul.

Dessie kissie pissie pussie

You take my breath away!

i Knew it was a crime, i did it anyways!

Oh when i see you...

BEEP TEST BEEP BEEP run bitch!

Skins heartheartheart

Bandages bandages bandages head banging