Give me some time.

I cant take it...
In like half an hour he will be gone, im gonna be all alone in my room, in this house, just lost.
And gaah, my mom wont let me be! Its so frustratin', i cant do anything right, but apparantly holding my tears inside is going quite well, but it gets harder and harder.
I cant decide what to wear, nothing seems to fit good on a sad body, i cant get my make up right either, my hair is a mess and i dont really know why im fixing up anyways!? Im not even able to follow him to the airport! NO NO, cami cant go there isnt enough space in the freaking car! And even so my mom pushes me around to do everything and i feel like a freaking zombie, and everything i do, i do to slow or bad. ''Put a smile on your face!'' ''Dont be such a brat'' GOSH MOM, youre not the only one loosing a loved one, well losing sounds a bit harsh, but still! GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK!
I cant wait until im alone, to just cry out, scream maybe.
Cause later on i wont be able to cry, there is no time for tears in my world.