Paint your face.

So, when he left i got to be alone. The tears started running down my face the same second he closed the door.
I wanted to tell him that i loved him and that he should take care when he gave me a hug, but i didnt want him to hear how my voice was gonna fade away slowly while saying those words.
It was actually really nice to get some time alone to just cry out, i dont remember that i have ever cried like that, painfull crying really.
But after half an hour i decided that it was enough, so i took one of his big brown sweater and put it over my white top and putted some jeans on and went out. No make up, no fixed hair, nothing, totally ... unfixed (?)
Really proud of that actually, first time i go out without make up!
Well, i went to see lisa, sadly enough the fresh air didnt stop my tears on the way to the tunnel where we always meet so i had to run and hide my face with my hand.
And i should actually give lisa an award or something cause she can make me laugh no matter in what mood i am!
Love you <3
But the tears stopped, they had to and i feel better.
I had to paint my face, fix my hair, put on a smile, put on a positive face, make it easier for those around me so they dont piss me off. Everyones happy tappy.

No more red eyes.