I fall when you leave.

I hate the times when my mind takes over my body, I hate the times when I cant decide between right or wrong.
I hate the times when I feel that I need to be just a little bit more free.
I hate the times when I know im just gonna fuck things up again, but I have to admit that I love the feeling.
Its not a bad feeling, exhausting maybe, but choosing wrong always feels more exiting.
I dont like to walk straight forward, im not that kind of girl.

I need something real.